in high school on morning in sophomore year i found a cute baby kitty in my front yard,
for a year we kept him thinking any day someone would come & ask for a lost Siamese kitty
but no no one came
we called him zuly, (su-lee) & spoiled him like crazy as an indoor only, only cat
2 years later we adopt  female Siamese & he actually ignore me for a hole week! because he was the only baby the house could have (dog did not count/ mater, but another cat was unforgivable)
he even snick out & ran away for a hole day &  night! i cried my eyes out because a new cat was not worth losing my baby!
now he tolerates her,
last week he looked sick & flu-ish
so we stopped letting him go outside,
& hoped he would get better, with other cats t took us a little t find he was now not eating. . .
i tried everything to get him to eat
today i got home from school (at 6/ all the vets are closed) & his face (left side) is swollen! he can hardly see through his left eye!
so we think h may have cancer. . . tomorrow i hve to take him to the vet. . . . . & most likely put him to sleep,
i have had him 6 years. . . hes my baby! i just feel so helpless! i have to take my baby to people so they can kill him!
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i need to read fanfic to get my mind off of this.